Ronda Rousey (Esther Lin/MMA Fighting)Ronda Rousey: “I Was Thinking About Killing Myself” After Loss to Holly Holm José Youngs February 16, 2016 News, Spotlight, UFC Former UFC champion Ronda Rousey is still feeling the effects of her knockout loss to current champion Holly Holm. This setback not only marked Rousey’s first professional defeat, but seemed to give the rest of the world ammo to take aim at the fallen champion. She had gone from America’s sweetheart to public enemy number one overnight. Rightfully so, she stepped away from the spotlight to regroup from the devastating loss. But now, during an interview with The Ellen DeGeneres Show, Rousey revealed the how serious the fallout from he loss actually was ( via Paul Chavez of the Daily Mail). “I was literally sitting there and thinking about killing myself and that exact second I’m like, ‘I’m nothing, what do I do anymore and no one gives a s**t about me anymore without this,'” Rousey told Ellen. Rousey went on to credit her boyfriend Travis Browne, a top ranked fighter in the UFC’s heavyweight division, for brining her back down. to earth. “To be honest I looked up and I saw my man Travis was standing up there and I looked up at him and I was like, I need to have his babies. I need to stay alive,” said Rousey. Rousey (12-1) has not stepped back inside the Octagon since Holm’s (11-0) shin slapped across her head early in second round of their UFC 193 title fight. It was a surreal scene to behold, as Rousey had widely been praised as one of the most dominant athletes on the planet. “In that first hit I cut open my whole mouth and I knocked my teeth loose,” said Rousey. “I knew she was out there, but I really don’t remember most of it. So I was trying my best to kind of hide the fact that I wasn’t even there anymore.” The UFC had planned to make the immediate rematch between the two women, but with these new developments the promotion announced Holm would instead meet former title contender Miesha Tate at UFC 197 in March. The entire sneak preview of Rousey’s interview with Ellen can be found below.